10 million dollars

Finally my exam is over and here comes my 9 weeks school holiday. After the hard work put in, i am confidence that i will pass the papers that i had, it is just only what kind of grade will i get. After the exam my friends were talking about winning the 10 million toto this coming Friday. They were talking how to spend that 10 million dollars, some will buy them self luxury cars, landed property or left aside one lump sum of money to gamble their way for more money.

As for me if i had that 10 million dollars

• Firstly i will tithe 10% of it
• Then i will share the joy by inviting my close friends, relative and my family to a great restaurant for a great meal
• Give my mum a retreat
• I will use some of the money to invests rather that gamble more
• Rest of the money put it aside for future use
• or maybe setting up business

having that one huge sum of money come with responsible. It is not easy for one to control the way how it was spend. 10 million can be gone in the shortest time if one does not know how to control.

Signs was given, was it hint or what?
I'm not sure.
Lack the courage to open my mouth.
Seem that there is something in thy eyes.
I'm afraid will fail.
The actions make me wonder,
if there is chance.
Lots of "What if" in my head during this period.

Thought of making myself drunk, after 2 cups thinking why should be doing this
it will be me no where. Though it will bring me out of the reality for a while
but still when i woke up nothing was done. So i gave up the idea.

Still i gave up the chance.

That one touch

A touch that had sparkle a dimming light into a burning flame inside of me.
A feeling beyond words can't be describe,
start spreading from that one touch in a speed of light to the rest of my body
then it hit right into my heart. It wasn't painful but special.
For that i was lost in the mist of time,
and for that very second time seem to stop.
I turn my head, looking into thy eyes,
give a smile and acting like nothing has happen.
wasn't i letting go in the first place but end up arose in me again.
wasn't i should be forgetting about it yet got reminded.
What i'm i going to?
caught in the mid of the cross junction.
No sign and directions to be seen.
thoughts have be fly in my mind.
For am i not mature about it?
What if .......
Time to stop
need to get really for exam

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR

After the spring cleaning and busy shopping of clothings finally Chinese New Year is here ! The day i have been waiting for! I dunno Why i can't wait to celebrate CNY this year keep long for the day to come. This is the day where all childrens is waiting for cos there is red packet to receive and money to gamble.

Chinese new year eve:

• Had reunion lunch cos is in the afthernoon, with my aunt, uncle, cousin, grandma, my mum bro and me. My mum steamboat is the best the soup is the best.
• Had reunion dinner at my auntie house this time w/o my mum cos she have to work.
• Then make my way to Wei Jun house, gamble and eat again Stay up till the next day

1st Day of chinese new year:

• Sleep till 1pm
• went to my grandma house @ bedok
• then rush to tampines
  
• then again to my god-grandma @ Ang Mo Kio
• back to my auntie house @ Toa Payoh
  
• make my way to Wei Jun house again. Gamble till the next day
• back home

2nd Day of chinese new year:

• went to bukit merah view for visiting again
  
• Gamble & eat again
• went to vivo city to catch movie but full house
• so end up watching Ghost Rider @ Tiong bahru shopping center
• had burger king & went back home
  
• watch tv till late night

3rd Day of chinese new year:

• spend my day @ sentosa beach celebrating Qing Kai B-day
• after that make my way to tampines to celebrate my grandma B-day also.
• head back home

4th Day of chinese new year:

• stay at home. Why? Need to revise for exam next day
  

My winning not too much, all i win is just coins cos i gamble for the seek of fun. Have been stay late night from CNY eve till the third day of CNY and one more thing during the 1st of CNY taxi was so hard to get waited more that 1/2 hour to get one under the burning sun. gosh exam start tomorrow have to sleep early today

Believing

Dameeeed today woke up with a pain in the neck although is not the very super duper kind of painful but is just uncomfortable. Got woke up by the the noise my mum and brother make, anyway i plan to go to sch gym for a workout .Dragging my ass out of my bed, brush my teeth, change up, got a quick bit and off i go heading to the station.

2 minute before the train reach i was 1o meter away from the entrance. I thought i was not going to make it so i took my time down the subway. To my surprise i was in time for the coming train, step right in spotted a sit and got sited. Looking high and low to find my MP3 player but in the end low batt no choice but to look around.

Lifted my head i saw this print on a person t-shirt " God is busy [a devil head in between] can i help?". I can't believe why could someone wear this kind of t-shirt, next i look at the person no wonder he is in a mess.

God is not busy is just that He always want to come to you is just whether if you could let Him come freely to you BUT if one denies Him the devil will come bringing fear along seeking whom he may devour. I once heard from one of my camp mate there are people worshiping the devil for power, unbelievable but is a fact. The devil may use you as he like but also throw ya away like a used tissues anytime and left ya to die if the devil see that you have not use to him.

It is very simple to let God come freely to you. It have to do with one's belief, Believing is the key. Simple yet not easy, why is it not easy? man tend to make alot of thinking and reasoning if is it so simple would it be that good or was it for sure? I once heard my pastor saying the way of God is simple but is man who complicate it, i was in my sit thinking was it really very difficult for one to believe.

Not until yesterday i attended a career seminar organized by a well known XXX company in the industries. It was held @ HQ building of it own in CBD area although is not tall but it's big and majestic the company also have 2 other building of it own somewhere out of CBD area it also working hand in hand with one of the big banking in singapore . The company invited a motivation speaker Adam koo who wrote the book "I am gifted so are you ". He talks about setting goal and putting action into the goal setted. One thing he mention also is believing. The talk is more on entrepreneurship but he also touch on the product of the XXX company.
It was not the kind of MLM (Multi Level Makating) company that i know of. The product and plan is simple and good is proved it work the only thing is that do i have the believe that i can achieved. The career give alot of benefit and freedom and because it look so simple it really make me do a lot of reasoning in my mind from yesterday till today.

This has made me relate to what my pastor have said.It have made me realize or see why people have difficult in believing God because he or she will really do alot of reasoning.

Is time to change the layout of my blog.

Bunch of Lost sheeps Acting Like Wolf

Woke up early today just to attend a one hour maths lesson anyway that not the main point. After that ONE HOUR MATHS LESSON we decide to have breakfast @ Ang Mo Kio should i say is breakfast and lunch together.

We as in Lina Yiwen nelson Samuel Mervin Eric & Me headed down to Yio Chu Kang mrt station to Ang Mo Kio. Here come my main point, as we were walking along the shelter that link between my school and Yio Chu Kang mrt a bunch of boys which they acted like ah beng with blond hair with a typical ah beng dressing staring at people as they passing by anyone. I was one of the victim but as i was one of a kind hearted and gentle creature on earth, i did not stare back at them. In my heart i was thinking none of them grew taller that my shoulder and not well build(skinny) and yet they still act like one of a kind. I could just give them one hard punch straight on their face and crying for daddy for help on the ground.

I guess they were on their way to register for courses in NYP.
OMG not in my sch can!!!! I hope that they got accepted by other polytechnic but not my sch.

It is also sad to see them acting in such a way. People who are proud are insecure they like to boost a lot. That bunch of boys only find secure when together it makes them proud and start staring at people, do you think anyone of them will stare at people like this when alone? I doubt so. I see that bunch of boys as a lost sheep acting like a wolf.

Anyway we had our meal at AMK Macdonald. Why were we having Macdonald @ AMK whereby NYP also have Macdonald and even cheaper? Reason because butt itchy lar (translate in chinese)

One last thing Singapore young lion won the ASEAN Football Championship Cup although i'm not a football fan of any club but I'm very happy that the young lion won. You guys made Singapore Proud!!